the shitty outcome
It has been a harder landing than usual, coming out of this latest psychosis. It has left me with a lot of sadness this time. I am grieving the person I was in person when [...]
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10, 2024
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10, 2024
need something better
Is there something else that can be used to treat my psychotic disorder?! Because THIS is CRAP!! As far as mental environments go, I am not sure I have ever felt quite so bad. Maybe [...]
5
10, 2024
reflection on that other world
Climb back into my shell I suppose. My mum misses the way I would call all the time, I miss reaching out to my dad, to my brother, to my friends. If my financial infrastructure [...]
4
10, 2024
the real world is lonely
Landing hard tonight. And notice that I am emotionally isolated from the people in my world again. I don't know what is worse - feeling distant from people and the world, or the chaos, the [...]
3
10, 2024
break, nother fook
Like a billiard table. Every time I put something out into this sphere, the energy shifts, and changes. One ball bouncing off another. And the blessed (but unfortunate) way that expressing emotions takes away their [...]
3
10, 2024
sadness everywhere
I am really out of my depth emotionally tonight. How are you doing?? I believe there is a solar eclipse happening. I am not sure if that is what causing this, but it feels isolating [...]
3
10, 2024
what is your burden to bear?
Maybe we 'all have something'. I mean something that challenges us so much and makes life incredibly difficult. I was thinking about my friend Starfish and her world. She certainly has a challenging situation in [...]
3
10, 2024
managing an internet addiction
Urgh. So, this is what withdrawal from an internet addiction feels like. This may be what kids feel like when their parents take their devices away. . . It is no fun! And yes, it [...]
2
10, 2024
the truth is. . .
Stuff this!! It is one of those rare occasions when I get a glimpse of freedom. Except it is just another prison cell somewhere else. Turtle has up and gone. It feels like an opportunity [...]
29
09, 2024
habits of a lifetime
Making the same mistake. Over and over again. The mistake is putting my feelings into words, and articulating them. Most other people move through their feelings without committing them to paper. I am looking for [...]