fml
I just saw my psychiatrist an now I am feeling incredibly confused and frustrated. It is not an exact science. It was me who suggested that maybe three psychoses in six months might be due [...]
4
02, 2026
3
02, 2026
another lap
I am just so broken. :'-| And somehow it feels like every trip around this loop makes the concepts and the people become more ingrained in my perceived reality. I am so, so broken. . [...]
3
02, 2026
ouchies – – – when it cuts deep into my heart
Feeling the ache of my broken soul today. Sometimes it feels like it is only when the tide turns towards healing that I really feel the extent of the tenderness. It is a weariness that [...]
2
02, 2026
the gentleness of recovery
My mind is still so beaten. I need to be gentle with it. For all the mess that gets made, for everything that breaks, are those psychoses worth anything at all? Perhaps I could 'go [...]
28
01, 2026
ouch – a chat with a neighbour )uber cool neighbour as well
One of my neighbours just dropped something from her balcony, and I said 'oh no!', (I was outside). She came down and said 'I didn't need to explain myself', because I had stupidly tried to [...]
25
01, 2026
December – January psychosis 2026
The situation is that the 'freeze' response that I had noticed earlier in my development transformed into severe, severe AMBIVALENCE in this latest block (40 days) of psychosis. . . At first I thought that [...]
21
01, 2026
tears because I am boring and broken
I am so sorry. I have done it again. Or not done it, as is the case. I need help. Is there anything that can help with this? Maybe I just need some more support. [...]
21
01, 2026
something
Maybe it is neurochemical. This inability to press the trigger. It happened all yesterday when I was looking for work. Looking for jobs that might get me over the line with my mortgage this month. [...]
8
01, 2026
functional freeze – – – terribubble
The problem I have had since the start of this festive season, and what I interpret as a push to fly somewhere away from here, is very simply 'functional freeze'. It can be a negative [...]
1
01, 2026
a note to where I want to be
It is the weather that is getting all effed up, am I right? And I am the culprit? Someone tonight said that 'things will never be the same'. I shudder to think about what everyone [...]