I never forgot the agony of being sYxual with other people after I met him. . . that was my issue I suppose. . . it makes me cry so much now, , , when there is an event on Valentine’s Day and it always felt like that door was closed to me, , , a relationship was not something that I could consider, , , is that my bad?

It seems that everyone knows, so perhaps Turtle took it upon himself to eff around with my heart for revenge or for laughs, , ,