I just saw my psychiatrist an now I am feeling incredibly confused and frustrated.

It is not an exact science.

It was me who suggested that maybe three psychoses in six months might be due to the 50 mg drop 18 months ago. I didn’t get the sense that he knew the answer to that question. But sure, just up it again, even though I can feel that this medication is affecting my memory and cognition, without any real evidence, am I right?

There is a book I can read. It is $44 and it is about the impact and withdrawal of antipsychotic medication.

Who was there to help me this time? I know it was a bad time of year.

Did I just eff up my life? What would have happened if I was well? Would I have connected with Astro on some level?

Not that it is everything, but, it feels like a big part of this equation – which still feels real on some level.

It is so frustrating trying to find help, and not feeling like anyone has the tools or skills to help.