I am not going to lie. . . My nerves are finally shot. All it took was for a couple more stressful security conscious emails to come through, after a full week of this stuff, and I am officially dysregulated.

And I am not sure how to soothe these nerves. I probably need to pat a dog. . . or curl up with a cat. Neither of these options is available to me.

Since it is a nervous energy, maybe moving my body will help. I am not sure. I had dreamed of cleaning my home today, and doing my washing, but that feels like a pipe dream.

I am going out to the theatre with some friends tonight, so I won’t be able to decompress at home. I feel like I need the warmth of a spa and sauna. Maybe I should do that!!

It doesn’t feel right, but NOTHING FEELS RIGHT. . . and I have all this nervous energy to process.

Ouch!!