I am a bit NERVOUS (in a mental way) about the CATT team visit today.

I am happy because Dad got me cleaning up this morning.

And he has arranged where we will all be seated. I always find the seating arrangements difficult, so I am grateful for THAT.

And I need to take a shower!!

…

So I took a shower, , , and ((now)) I am feeling nervous, but, , , they are mental health PROFESSIONALS am I right?

Dad and I had a big yack last night. He was aware that the psychiatrists think I should reduce all my neurotropic medication.

And his concern was that when I drop solian, things go awry.

I do get through it, but I can’t be working with my support clients while I am doing it.

As with my vision impaired client and his family – things get messed up.

. . .

I suggested that I take a 6 week sabbatical every now and again, and he said that my clients need me. To which I said that I want to build a co-op (eventually) of care workers, so that we can provide leave and support to each other and profit share.

;;;

The third psychiatrist enquired if I had thought about getting some NDIS for myself. I said that I had thought about it, because when my friend JD supported me on the psychosis within a day and normalised things, I was back on my feet within a day.

I feel like I need someone who I can rely on, to normalise things when I do become psychotic. Because my thoughts do get extremely distressing, and as Dad says – it is real to me.