My psychiatrist called my sexual assault counsellor out on IFS (Internal Family Systems) today. He had read the book that I was recommended and told me he had never heard such a load of nonsense. Zero evidence. No studies. He would prefer me to stop the therapy with Aitkens altogether. .. Sol doesn’t want me to do that though. . . It was just that he said IFS could do real damage to me. And I kind of ‘got’ that because when we did our opening mindfulness practice, one of the ‘critical parts’ that I had isolated with Aitkens raised its ugly head while trying to focus on my breath. It was intense.

Par for the course, of course. I guess. Since mindfulness is SUPPOSED to be challenging, , , I suppose.

Maybe that is where this WEIRD emotional eating is coming from as well! Intuitively, I wondered if the ‘part’ I have told you about that is scared to let anyone close is scared because Turtle is getting closer every day, and it is FREAKING out!! Or maybe it is just a temporary symptom of medication withdrawal. Who knows!?

My psychiatrist thinks that we all have a part of us that is scared to let anyone close – it is called vulnerability.