I don’t feel so good. And it hurts so much,

i haven’t been sexually active for more than 20 years now (apart from a few encounters),

Because I am broken,

And when I think about it, I cry my heart out.

They said they might send me to WREN. I just want to be okay.

Is it a mental health facility.

Are they going to address TRAUMA??

I thought I was okay.

But I am NOT.

…

I am not convinced that letting trauma bubble up through me is going to allow me to process it.

It isn’t always around,

But when it bubbles up, I feel so sad.

Am I ever going to have sex again?

Oooooch.

…

There are all these men here in this hospital.

And they follow me around, and leer at me.

It doesn’t feel all that SAFE, if I am honest.

.. .

And then the wave passes, and I AM OK!!