Maybe it is neurochemical. This inability to press the trigger.

It happened all yesterday when I was looking for work. Looking for jobs that might get me over the line with my mortgage this month.

I just can’t press the trigger. And what is that all about?

Ambivalence.

I need more dopamine perhaps.

I need something. .. and then on the days when I do press the trigger I get swayed by the noise, by the media, by the input. I baulk and turn back.

If it were not so jamned frustrating, , , and BORING, ,, then it would be an interesting psychological problem.