It (((hurts))) so bad. And School of Life posted os something interesting today about uncomfortable feelings.

 

I am frightened to go and find it tonight, because Abbie Chatfield made me cry.

 

She was talking about boundaries. And the Real Housewives of London. It is a relity, telveif  OUCH!!!

Today was difficult in so many different ways. I went to my corner store as normal in the mornings. The father was kind to me. I was crying at the television because they were interviewing a stranger from the Pacific Islands. I think it was Vanuato. . . This is my experience, so I suppose I am trying to learn to … do the thing that the school of life said I should do, but I need to get back to the post, somehow, sometime.

For now, all I know is that there is some conflict in my relationship with its mother, because she sometimes suggests things that ‘will be good for me’ which don’t feel right to me. Or they feel like this kind of schism. It feels like a kind of blunt force inside of me.

 

The stress, and the pure grief. . .