Wondering if the cogitating has something to do with that not being allowed to inhabit my experience again. That is what the cogitating is about. Apparently if our minds are fixated on something – either something that we have done wrong, or something that someone is going to do (or has done) wrong to us, we can’t stop thingking, about this, because if we did stop, we would be incredibly sad.

It is a bridge to a kind of isolation.

And things get otu of hand. When I start to think that all the things that happened to day are somehow my fault, I suppose that might be a kind of wawrped cogitation. Do people have their own motivations? I couldn’t control other people’s acctions, could I?