It gets worse!! (Apparently)

I have a ticket to fly to the home city of my niece in a couple of weeks, , , and I am going to FLAKE…

I am so frightened of upsetting my brother that I won’t talk to anyone, , , and my parents will be busy distracting themselves from the uncomfortable situation (perhaps), , , and I am just CRAP at so many === social situations ====

It is getting a little easier in some contexts, , , but , , , this fear I have in my soul, , , this concern , , , this inability just to be my friendly, normal self, , , is UNHINGED. . .