I'm sorry. . . 'For effing what?!'  It is dumb. I think both of these online relationships are going nowhere. We keep going around this toxic kind of cycle, but I don't know Mouse and I [...]

I wish I had written here before consulting with the internet or Instagram. i have lost the precious subconscious response to yesterday's hi-jinx. Note for next time! I do remember how much love I still [...]

So, if there is a way to validate ourselves, so that we don't spiral down the plug hole to despair, what would that look like? Maybe ACE? Acknowledge the feeling.  What am I feeling? Come [...]

In this lonely world - who would be interested in hearing my voice? Because I can't think of a single person who would have the time or inclination to listen to me. Hell, it hurts.

I am in pain because I 'attached' through talking to that person on the phone. And now I feel like I don't want to talk to them anymore, , , because i think this situation [...]

I feel sad and I feel triggered. Ouch, ouch, ouch. OUCH!!

So sorry to talk about me right now, , , when it is my love who needs nurturance. . .

I am hugging my toy rabbit and dreaming of a very interesting movie. Night! ;-)

Maybe I have never known emotional pain like this. And maybe it is a breakthrough of some kind.