I still feel STRANGe. . . EMily Strange, perhaps.. I feel. . . so different. . . in my soul, , , It was an unfamiliar and DIFFICULT feeling, I suppose. . .

And I am very to happy to have the company. He is a great confidant. . . and he makes me laugh. So ner.

It is good. I pushed back with my mother for the first time last night. you didn't see the emails that I wrote to my brother and my DAD last night, , , but, , [...]

I don’t know WHAT TO DO WITH THIS FEELING…

I FEEL SO ANGRY 😡 It is not anyone’s fault, , , I just feel ANGRY, , , that has some energy, no/ anger? I felt it a few times, , the tiniest bit of [...]

Well, I woke up this morning and my DAD was gone!! Not sure what time he left this morning, but he said that if I was asleep, 'he wouldn't wake me'. And now I am [...]

I am starting to GET INDECISIVE again.   On one hand, I want to GO OUT for a walk, but I am TIRED, I have been quite active these past week? Was it a week [...]

I am upset, , , because I don't even know my Dad. It is like he was just TOO BUSY to pay me any attention. And then he just questions my REALITY. He doesn't believe [...]

I realised something funny today too. You see my psychiatrist mentioned that she thought I was a ‘very interesting lady’. (in that moment, I should have said ‘I had a lot of help from my [...]