drastic change or play safe
AI has me playing safe. Holding on to the vestiges of my support work roles - for money. Maybe I didn't mention that I still have one job that still keeps me nearly above water. [...]
11
01, 2026
11
01, 2026
house is not a home
I feel so confused. I get the sense that I am not supposed to 'be here', and yet, I am wondering for 'how long' do I need to be away? Because I can't imagine that [...]
9
01, 2026
so much for a new world
So much for reducing screen time. I have been glued to my screen all day. In some kind of desperate attempt to recover the financial ground that I have lost, this psychosis. It seems like [...]
7
01, 2026
when trying gets stale
Help!! I have no idea what I am doing now. I have tried so many times to get on that train to my home. And I am not even sure why it feels so important [...]
5
01, 2026
courage required
jellyfish is about right, i would say. so, perhaps i will have the worst of both worlds?? i didn't update my answer when i understood what i have done. i wanted to fight for that [...]
20
12, 2025
The funk
I know this… I should show up no matter how much of a funk I am in. I don’t know why I didn’t invite a friend. I don’t know why I wasn’t visiting earlier. :-/
4
09, 2025
Thinking about the purpose of Soul Gardening
It is interesting to visit Soul Gardening after a big break, and read back on the past year or so worth of public posts. It has me wondering - what is the purpose of this [...]
10
07, 2025
what is good for me
I feel like getting out for a walk would be so good for me, but I feel so weak. Maybe this is one of those situations where I should FORCE myself to get up and [...]
5
07, 2025
too tired to write
Soooooo sleepy.... It also feels like I have been tensing all my muscles, or holding my breath, and recently I had cause to breathe outt, or relaz a little, but it just feels like my [...]
20
06, 2025
vinyasa tears and toast, haha
Drats! I think I am going to UBER over to the movies tonight. It is an extra expense, but my nervous system is so shot. I don't want to drive, or catch PT. I did [...]