autumn chill
And then I am torn between not particularly wanting to get to know myself as a 'new person' (better the devil you know perhaps), and feeling like I should reciprocate this silence and just evacuate [...]
1
04, 2025
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03, 2025
the changing weather of grief
I feel so sad for my friend who lost her husband of 40 years today. I am wondering how she must be feeling, and if it feels empty and bleak, or rich and soft with [...]
27
03, 2025
free fall
I am in a bit of a pickle now. And let's be clear - this 'push, pull' dynamic lives and dies on something more symbolic than romantic feelings for another human being. As a symbol [...]
12
02, 2025
we should get together
Blah, blah, blah. I want to become known as someone who is obsessed with adult friendship. I like the idea of focussing on something positive, and a rewarding value to move towards, rather than concentrating [...]
30
01, 2025
Virtual co-regulation or the start of something challenging
Some therapists believe that the pathway to secure attachment lies in healing of our dysregulated nervous systems. This is the realm of Polyvagal theory. It makes sense to me intellectually. However, engaging in the co-regulating [...]
24
01, 2025
surprising results and withdrawal
I am quite surprised by the strength of the emotions that are bubbling up as I remove myself from my variety of addiction to the internet. It reminds me of when I gave up cigarettes. [...]
20
12, 2024
understanding men
It is so interesting to learn about male psychology and biology. I am noticing that I perceive men in such a different way as I build this knowledge. I see them 'from their point of [...]
15
12, 2024
the stigma, perhaps, , , is that it?
I spoke to a psychologist friend of mine today. Two things came out of the conversation. The first is that it is hard on my soul to be 'friends with a psychologist', despite the fact [...]
3
10, 2024
break, nother fook
Like a billiard table. Every time I put something out into this sphere, the energy shifts, and changes. One ball bouncing off another. And the blessed (but unfortunate) way that expressing emotions takes away their [...]
26
01, 2024
Negotiating a trauma bond
Dear goodness...I am so grateful that I will have my first appointment with a sexual assault counsellor next week. The therapy was initiated due to a previous act of violence towards me, but I am [...]