maybe there is a better way
The tiniest bit of progress, has me wanting to stay the course. Even though it feels so awful, so much of the time. I don't even know if it is worth it, Because I don't [...]
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04, 2025
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04, 2025
the will to live
Something is sucking all the joy out of my life, and I think it might be the cutting down of this connection (but I am not sure). If I could really trust that person, and [...]
28
04, 2025
with or without compromise
It is extremely challenging to conduct a friendship with persons who share literally nothing of themselves with me, or contribute to the conversation in any meaningful way. It leaves me in an awkward position. Because [...]
24
04, 2025
a good reason
Another school holiday period. Something has clicked into place in my mind. And now when I see Dads with their kids, and family photos of men with their families I finally understand that this is [...]
30
03, 2025
the changing weather of grief
I feel so sad for my friend who lost her husband of 40 years today. I am wondering how she must be feeling, and if it feels empty and bleak, or rich and soft with [...]
30
01, 2025
Virtual co-regulation or the start of something challenging
Some therapists believe that the pathway to secure attachment lies in healing of our dysregulated nervous systems. This is the realm of Polyvagal theory. It makes sense to me intellectually. However, engaging in the co-regulating [...]
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12, 2024
understanding men
It is so interesting to learn about male psychology and biology. I am noticing that I perceive men in such a different way as I build this knowledge. I see them 'from their point of [...]
15
12, 2024
the stigma, perhaps, , , is that it?
I spoke to a psychologist friend of mine today. Two things came out of the conversation. The first is that it is hard on my soul to be 'friends with a psychologist', despite the fact [...]
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10, 2024
break, nother fook
Like a billiard table. Every time I put something out into this sphere, the energy shifts, and changes. One ball bouncing off another. And the blessed (but unfortunate) way that expressing emotions takes away their [...]
26
01, 2024
Negotiating a trauma bond
Dear goodness...I am so grateful that I will have my first appointment with a sexual assault counsellor next week. The therapy was initiated due to a previous act of violence towards me, but I am [...]