I never forgot the agony of being sYxual with other people after I met him. . . that was my issue I suppose. . . it makes me cry so much now, , , when [...]

Feeling sad about the fact that my love is obviously pretty pissed with me. I don't know. . . I didn't know!! It hurts so much and makes me cry that I broke his heart. [...]

To be human is also to experience a sickness that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It is a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that spreads throughout my body, , , and it [...]

Reality can be ice cold. All this after waking up from a dream of the malicious intent of the person I have followed all this time. How awful could it be? Maybe reality is a [...]

The truth is not immediately obvious. It is all invisible to me. Something not real, Something that needs a deeper sense of self.

It feels like love may be lost. I am locked outside of it. There is comfort in the way of not being known. Feels like it is finally lost because I wasn't on that train, [...]

I feel like I want to carry my tear filled heart to the door of a kindly person, And let it break on their doorstep.

Missing older versions of 'us'. Before I was even aware that we were connected in that way. The innocence of love and admiration. The feelings were always true, even if everything around them was messy. [...]