when the energy is poorly
My soul has never felt this sick inside. And words on the internet are merely trite. I need to get up, and vomit all over my feet. I don't know what else to do. Is [...]
12
01, 2026
4
01, 2026
soul mess
My soul is such a mess this afternoon. . . Soothing sounds of Gotye might do some good, , , but I am not sure it is going to heal the giant wound in my [...]
4
01, 2026
chaos and the things that change you
I am so frightened that I have messed this up. It is hard to talk about. . . And, maybe illness and forced containment are not good enough reasons. There is a place I want [...]
4
01, 2026
Fly todayyyy ??
I am wondering if I should fly today. Is he even still there? If I went there at least I would be there and see it with my own eyes. they kept me in when [...]
2
01, 2026
take me out
It would have been amazing to take your boy out this weekend, or to step out with your boy, ((Mum)). Between these two worlds is a person who is torn between 'go' and 'woah'. . [...]
1
01, 2026
tragedy
Not a private space to say that I am sorry. Sorry probably doesn't cut it, in any case. What the hell have I (not) done? She had me chasing him the whole way. . . [...]
1
01, 2026
wanted to stay near – what it seems to be
I am not providing MUCH company, text through a computer screen to you in your world. It is not exactly the 'connection' I feel sure you and I need right now. I had some harebrained [...]
27
12, 2025
So sorry
I am so terribly sorry. You showed up for me. And I wasn’t there for you. I can only begin to imagine how lonely and distressing and painful that must have been for you. Especially [...]
27
12, 2025
Songs of the worst key
Can we work it out? I want to fly to you today. And my brain and body feels broken. I shudder to think how you must be feeling.
12
12, 2025
a vulnerability point
It was hard to admit. . . Hard to talk about. . . She felt like he liked her on some level. . . but he didn't even know her. And the tears started streaming [...]