It is tricky, , , when my tummy is in nkowts, , , because I said the wrong things, , , and because I have had a bit of a SHOCK this afternoon, , and because I feel lik e I am a bad person, , , in any case, ,, it makes dinner difficult, ,, if you know what i mean? Like I don’t deserve to eat, , , or I can’t in any case, , , because , , , well because I am evil perhaps, , , I don’t know. . .

And I know that sounds BAD. . . it sounds like I am evil to the core. . . I am just thinking out loud again, , , and I do think that I shouldn’t be. . . but I still can’t eat. . . and, , , the fridge is beckoning me.