I guess intuitively I feel like I can maybe trust Turtle. . . he is always so KIND to meeee. It is telling I think, , ,

I know that I won’t be able to really know until I talk to him in person (for any extended period). . . I think my nervous system will tell me how safe he is for me. . . I kinda already KNOW how my nervous system responds to Turtle. . . It is a fizz, fur sure. A gentle kind of excitement,,,inside.

I just want to curl up and huge the man, haha ((hug)) the MAN. . . I guess that kind of this happens step by step. Thre is no guarantee that we work , , , we might fail terribly in sexual relationships (if we ever get THERE!!) – if that even ever happens!

I think of the coast, that idyllic, quiet, part of the world. . . some people abused me there too, but , , , apart from that I felt PRETTY SAFE!! 🙂