the other side of hesitation
To be human is also to experience a sickness that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It is a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that spreads throughout my body, , , and it [...]
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01, 2026
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01, 2026
stomach knots for a different reason now
It is hard to write. I am so stressed out. The pressure is on.
15
01, 2026
a storm in the pit of my stomach
And I let the mood slide down, when it could have gone up? I have had enough pain for a year of Sundays. Still, it doesn't feel GOOD, I suppose. . . maybe that is [...]
15
01, 2026
43:
I can't say that I haven't been warned. Some people say that this 'game' is one of life and death. My dream showed something completely different to the intention I believed was in that man's [...]
15
01, 2026
superfluous in most ways
Reality can be ice cold. All this after waking up from a dream of the malicious intent of the person I have followed all this time. How awful could it be? Maybe reality is a [...]
15
01, 2026
tomorrow is a new day
I feel very, very sad. . . And text is not it, , , but it is not the time and place for anything else. . . a phone call :-/ I don't want to [...]
15
01, 2026
what feels worse (to me at least)
Now I feel ashamed for writing my private business to you here. So, I am not sure if it is an okay mistake that I keep making, Or if I should just weather the shame, [...]
14
01, 2026
((music is the light))
Sorry. I shouldn't have opened up an email chat. I read the markers all wrong. In any case, I can write to you here, perhaps. (Now I don't know what to say), , , except [...]
14
01, 2026
inertia
I am so stuck. Feeling drawn to the coast, but not at all sure that is where I belong... or if that is even something my friend is entertaining. Needing to go back for a [...]
14
01, 2026
dumb things
If only I had taken that beer last night, rather than abstained. Perhaps I would not be so sleepy today. Blah.