an impossible decision
Here’s the thing – I am feeling pressure from different angles to get to the coast – today. The problem is that if I leave today I will abandon my elderly client and surely lose [...]
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01, 2026
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01, 2026
for showing up
The truth is not immediately obvious. It is all invisible to me. Something not real, Something that needs a deeper sense of self.
13
01, 2026
a dose of clarity
It feels like love may be lost. I am locked outside of it. There is comfort in the way of not being known. Feels like it is finally lost because I wasn't on that train, [...]
13
01, 2026
no idea what I am going
I miss him so much... And in other news, something has me thinking that I should abstain from coffee. . . I don't know what all these rules mean. Or what their purpose is. Not [...]
13
01, 2026
kindly connection
I feel like I want to carry my tear filled heart to the door of a kindly person, And let it break on their doorstep.
13
01, 2026
before awareness
Missing older versions of 'us'. Before I was even aware that we were connected in that way. The innocence of love and admiration. The feelings were always true, even if everything around them was messy. [...]
12
01, 2026
the fault line
Feeling like the only hope is to be a little playful. I am not sure that disappearing from the internet is the answer. And I am so embarrassed. I am burning up inside. Is it [...]
12
01, 2026
when the energy is poorly
My soul has never felt this sick inside. And words on the internet are merely trite. I need to get up, and vomit all over my feet. I don't know what else to do. Is [...]
11
01, 2026
drastic change or play safe
AI has me playing safe. Holding on to the vestiges of my support work roles - for money. Maybe I didn't mention that I still have one job that still keeps me nearly above water. [...]
11
01, 2026
house is not a home
I feel so confused. I get the sense that I am not supposed to 'be here', and yet, I am wondering for 'how long' do I need to be away? Because I can't imagine that [...]