fml
I just saw my psychiatrist an now I am feeling incredibly confused and frustrated. It is not an exact science. It was me who suggested that maybe three psychoses in six months might be due [...]
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02, 2026
3
02, 2026
sleepy bear
It is 7:31 PM and I feel like I want to go to bed. . . to sleep. It makes sense I guess. I woke at 1:30 AM, and stayed awake due to the stress, [...]
3
02, 2026
another lap
I am just so broken. :'-| And somehow it feels like every trip around this loop makes the concepts and the people become more ingrained in my perceived reality. I am so, so broken. . [...]
3
02, 2026
ouchies – – – when it cuts deep into my heart
Feeling the ache of my broken soul today. Sometimes it feels like it is only when the tide turns towards healing that I really feel the extent of the tenderness. It is a weariness that [...]
2
02, 2026
the gentleness of recovery
My mind is still so beaten. I need to be gentle with it. For all the mess that gets made, for everything that breaks, are those psychoses worth anything at all? Perhaps I could 'go [...]
31
01, 2026
stuck in a different way
This is all wrong. I need to get out of my house so bad. And maybe making big decisions when my mind is healing is not such a good idea. I thought maybe I should [...]
31
01, 2026
this effing house
I need to GET OUT, And where can I go? I need to shake things up, When my mind is already fragile.
31
01, 2026
taking stock on what has happened now
Saturday morning. I don't feel so good. Or at least deep down inside something is FREAKING out, , , it may be the idea of meeting up with Astro for real. My rational mind and [...]
30
01, 2026
hot day, emotions that were flying high, and the craasssshhhh
I have been 'eating my feelings' tonight. It is sad, I guess.- the way my behaviour responds to the threat of being ignored (perhaps that is the behaviour I am witnessing). I am just so [...]
30
01, 2026
maybe it hurts in the knots in my tummy
Ouch! Despite the fact that I love Astro, , , I also have feelings for Mouse. And it makes me feel sad. He tells me that he is feeling bad, and that maybe he wasn't [...]