not being aware of the rules of an environment
During the course of the past two days I have become a little more aware of the person I want to be. I want to be the kind of person who is able to direct a conversation [...]
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11, 2024
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10, 2024
taking care or pushing through
I think there is a lot to be said for the capacity to gently and compassionately take care of ourselves. Today, I took the day off from my support shift. I also did not work [...]
31
10, 2024
the repercussions
I feel really sad. . . and I am crying, , , and I want a hug. 'I am not surprised' says Sol.
20
10, 2024
the shitty outcome
It has been a harder landing than usual, coming out of this latest psychosis. It has left me with a lot of sadness this time. I am grieving the person I was in person when [...]
6
10, 2024
need something better
Is there something else that can be used to treat my psychotic disorder?! Because THIS is CRAP!! As far as mental environments go, I am not sure I have ever felt quite so bad. Maybe [...]
5
10, 2024
reflection on that other world
Climb back into my shell I suppose. My mum misses the way I would call all the time, I miss reaching out to my dad, to my brother, to my friends. If my financial infrastructure [...]
4
10, 2024
the real world is lonely
Landing hard tonight. And notice that I am emotionally isolated from the people in my world again. I don't know what is worse - feeling distant from people and the world, or the chaos, the [...]
3
10, 2024
break, nother fook
Like a billiard table. Every time I put something out into this sphere, the energy shifts, and changes. One ball bouncing off another. And the blessed (but unfortunate) way that expressing emotions takes away their [...]
3
10, 2024
sadness everywhere
I am really out of my depth emotionally tonight. How are you doing?? I believe there is a solar eclipse happening. I am not sure if that is what causing this, but it feels isolating [...]
3
10, 2024
what is your burden to bear?
Maybe we 'all have something'. I mean something that challenges us so much and makes life incredibly difficult. I was thinking about my friend Starfish and her world. She certainly has a challenging situation in [...]