tears because I am boring and broken
I am so sorry. I have done it again. Or not done it, as is the case. I need help. Is there anything that can help with this? Maybe I just need some more support. [...]
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01, 2026
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01, 2026
something
Maybe it is neurochemical. This inability to press the trigger. It happened all yesterday when I was looking for work. Looking for jobs that might get me over the line with my mortgage this month. [...]
20
01, 2026
learn how to fly
I should have kept my big mouth shut. What time for us? I am so broken today that I can't think creatively, or work to get myself out of this financial funk. And I am [...]
19
01, 2026
I need to get into my body and meditation
I guess we are all broken in some way, , , and most of us spend wayyy too much time in our heads. . . and that is the human condition, right? From the roof [...]
19
01, 2026
like I don’t deserve his friendship I guess :-/ – – – OUCH
My oldest best friend checkkkkked up on me for the third time in three days, , and I am so grateful, , , but i also feel so sad. . . like. . . Like [...]
19
01, 2026
ouchies and the practicalities
It is tricky, , , when my tummy is in nkowts, , , because I said the wrong things, , , and because I have had a bit of a SHOCK this afternoon, , and [...]
19
01, 2026
hesitation
The things I couldn't say to the person I may want to love: My hips are so sore - some business. . . Maybe vitamin D?? And I am not feeling verbally fluent because of [...]
18
01, 2026
closed doors and a broken heart still
I never forgot the agony of being sYxual with other people after I met him. . . that was my issue I suppose. . . it makes me cry so much now, , , when [...]
18
01, 2026
the hostilities through pouring tears
Feeling sad about the fact that my love is obviously pretty pissed with me. I don't know. . . I didn't know!! It hurts so much and makes me cry that I broke his heart. [...]
17
01, 2026
the other side of hesitation
To be human is also to experience a sickness that I wouldn't wish on anyone. It is a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that spreads throughout my body, , , and it [...]