There was a big crash of lightning today, just as I finished that post.

NOW I need to get on a plane (domestic), with purpose. I need to go and check things out up where I am thinking might be good common ground. . . suspect! ((maybe, maybe)) – steady on. .  my dad still needs to come down, but I don’t know when he planning to do that. And I was going to buy.

It will be hard to tell my mother (without telling her, if you know what I mean), or my DAd for that matter. Perhaps I can talk to my brother about it. How could’ve I had a party without him there?? Or my nieces. My mother said that my birthday would be horrible with family there, and it may have been, but my brother called me on my birthday and even sang me a birthday song!

Parch said that he thinks I should make a time to talk to Dexter and just ask ‘are we okay’? Because I think he is pissed with me. Or I know that for sure. . . hmmm. . . it frightens me, , , and that is just my nervous system remembering.